Through the mounds of laundry, boxes,visitors, breast feeding, and diapers I found myself quite exhausted and barely surviving the first month. Especially those few weeks after my mom had gone back home, and the husband had to work outside of the home.
I felt tired
I felt alone
I felt anxious
Everything was so new, so different. My sole job was to feed a small being every 2 hours (and sometimes more often). As a breastfeeding mom, this was no small task. It’s difficult, painful, and a learning process. *Its get better though! Make sure he was clean, diapered and content.
Most importantly make sure he was loved, nurtured, and adored.
I vowed early on that these three things would be my top priority. However, sometimes I found it difficult to fully live them out. Simply because he didn’t talk back, or my phone was ringing; facebook, pinterest, instagram, twitter were calling, OR I was dwelling in the ‘work’ part of my new life. I was forgetting to be intentional with him, to savor the moments. I spend 24/7 with the kid, time spent feeding, and doing things for him. BUT I thought about how I should be building a relationship with the new little guy in my life. So, even at the age of 3 weeks, I realized it was time to have Mama/Son dates. These didn’t take place anywhere special, but they were sweet time for us to bond, get to know each other, and most importantly UNINTERRUPTED!
After all if I were attempting to build a relationship with anyone else I would spend sweet time with them. Why should my baby be any different?
I want to be a Mom who is intentional with her children. Even when there are piles of laundry, dishes, and plenty of things to do, may I take time out to play, sing, read, dance with this sweet boy. UNINTERRUPTED. With No iphone, no tv, no distractions for at least 30 minutes a day. He can’t talk but I know he will appreciate it :).
Jesus does and would do the same. Each time he encounters a person in the bible, he is intentional with his eyes, his heart, and his actions. It’s not too far fetched to say that Jesus changes the world with his intentionality. First with his Father, and then when the people he encountered.