After getting home from the hospital with our bundle of Joy, we were greeted with loving friends and family to help. Such a blessing to have home cooked meals, a clean house, and people to love on our new family. In the wee hours of the night, we found ourselves asking, pondering, and searching for answers to countless questions. Luckily, I had a friend’s number on speed text. She has a sweet baby boy two months older than Harrision, and she has been a God-sent. And good thing you can GOOGLE anything!
Wondering, Worrying, Contemplating, Questioning rounds out what I did those first weeks back at home. Having a newborn baby in the house was one thing, but I was also worrying about making a move just 3 shorts weeks after we came home with him. Worrying if the house deal was actually going to close, worrying about finances, worrying about my “job” transition as a stay at home mom. I seem to do this with anything NEW, I worry and question. I have this fear that something just won’t happen the ‘right’ way. Boiling down to a fear of failure.
As soon as Hopefully sooner than later, when fears creep in I’m reminded who’s Daughter I am. I’m reminded that the creator of the universe, the Lord of Lords, King of Kings is my FATHER. He’s the ultimate protector, the one who has all of the answers, and he’s always got my back. How can I fail, “If God is with me, who [what] could stand against me ?” Romans 8:31
Paul says it best…
He tells the Philippians to PRAY, be thankful to OUR Father. His peace will transcend all understanding! I’m pretty sure that says ALL; His peace transcends OVER google, grandma, babywise, and the ‘perfect’ mom down the street. My prayer is that I pray for Harrison more than I question, more than I worry, that I petition to God the boy that was HIS before he was ever mine.